So far away. My scattered soulmates!

My heart hurts still today. It has hurt from the past few weeks, and today it hurts the most. I'm sad that I wasn't able to go to Duffy's wedding...it was my year's goal and ambition, and if I would have done the paperwork faster I would be in the states as we speak probably watching Lola and Kaylie play.

I know I will be able to go in about a month to see my mom, Andres, and most of my amigos. And now I come to find out that my soul mate is leaving for Korea much sooner than I expected, meaning that I won't be able to see her like I had hoped for. It's been 4 years and counting since we have seen each other, laughed together, cried together, hung out to discuss life. I found out today that I wouldn't be seeing her this year, and now it breaks my heart to think when will fate let our paths cross again.

It's not a question of continuing to be friends or continuing to be close as we are...we both know we will always be no matter the distance or time. But it's a hard situation to think that it's been so long, and will be so long. I miss her dearly.

Not to mention the rest of my scattered soulmates. My three little birds, my boys, and all those who have made a permanent imprint on my soul. I listen to songs, watch tv shows and movies, ride the bus, teach English, and think of all of you-past, present, and future. It kills me more than you all know to be so far away, to feel so far away, to see you all so far away.

I know I haven't been the best with the long-distance friendships, but it's not because I forget you guys, nor because I want to forget you; it's because life has become hectic. Colombia, or just Bogota has made me into a person who runs everyday and forget to stop and smell the roses. Living here has made me lose time in my day leaving me with nothing to give you guys. There is no excuse for not sitting down at least 15 minutes to write you all emails to greet, to update you and myself on each others' lives, etc. Because one of the worst parts of this is that I don't even know what each and very one of you is up to, and that makes me sad. My behavior has been unacceptable for our friendships.

I can't believe how fast time has gone by, it really seems like yesterday we were still together even if it was just summer vacation, and everyone was visiting from college. Now we're all grown up, and scattered everywhere. Life will continue as the seconds, minutes, and hours tick away but it's up to us to make the effort to continue our laughter, our support, and our happiness for one another.

I miss you all more than you will ever know, really.

I love you.